There’s No Place Like Home


I have lost most of June and July to surgical procedures and complications. The surgical procedure was planned yet the hospitalization afterward, not so much. Well, that’s not exactly true, the doctor said it might happen sooo… with my medical luck I should’ve known I’d probably be hospitalized (my less than 1% rule) 😊. However, I did not plan for the intense myriad of emotions I encountered in that 24 hour stay.

My anxiety level was off the charts. All the helplessness and fear from 17 years ago rushed back in like they never left. The difficult memories of the hours spent at my mom’s bedside three years ago (during the last few months of her life) stopped in to chatter as well.

Some of you may know that hospital beds are not comfortable AND if you want to sleep, a hospital is a place to get better; NOT the place to get rest 😊 I felt very alone(even with the various nurses coming in and my anxiety to keep me company). I worried something else would go wrong and I’d be stuck with a longer stay(just like 17 years ago).

Thankfully, the surgeon discharged me the next day. I was thrilled to be home, yet I was on edge. I couldn’t sleep. I was in a lot of pain. When they found another blood clot in the Ilial vein 4 days after surgery, I realized I had no control of my recovery. Luckily no hospital stay, I just had to give myself Lovenox injections. The day I gave myself my first shot, the panic attacks began. (Thankfully my therapist will do phone visits with me, when I can’t easily leave the house). I wish I could say, I spent the time working on my manuscript. Sadly, I could not focus. That frustrated me to no end.

But, the Lord answered prayers(thank you everyone) over the last couple weeks, because the acute, intense pain from the Ilial vein blockage has started to ease(thank you stent), I’m closer to just my RSD pain level(can’t believe I’d ever be happy about that)😊, and my left foot’s blue shade has faded to a lovely aqua hue. I’ve started writing/researching again. My stamina is not where I’d like it to be yet, but I have an incentive to work toward…

My daughter will finally be home on Tuesday 31st!! (Yay!) 🙂 She completed her 4-month semester at Tokyo International University in Japan. It will then be a 2 ½ week mad dash until we bring her to Wilmington to start her senior year at UNCW! But she will be in her own bed at home with us for those 2 ½ weeks.

Sara and host family at summer festival wearing yukata(light summer kimono)

I would love to say I handled her being so far away in stride and that even when earthquakes were reported near Tokyo (there were two) I was calm, cool, and collected…Ha! Nope, more like tense, scared, and terrified. I worried and missed her A LOT. It took(and still will until I can hug her) a lot of praying and faith that she would be safe, meet nice people, enjoy herself-oh and learn Japanese at the same time! Although, it helped knowing she’d have angels watching over her-especially my Mom.

Sara thankfully, escaped natural disasters in Japan. However, a place close to her, my mother’s, and my heart-Hiroshima- has not. On July 6th heavy rains caused horrible flooding and mudslides in Western Japan affecting Hiroshima, Ehime, and Okayama.210 people are dead and 14 still missing. Extreme heat hinders the clean-up and searches.Last week 1200 people were still in shelters in Hiroshima and many homes were still without running water. The flood and mudslides damaged some schools. They’ve lost textbooks and supplies.

Hiroshima flood copyright CNN

I’m waiting to hear back from the school in Hiroshima that recently did something wonderful for THE LAST CHERRY BLOSSOM (more about that in a future post) to see how I can help them. Please keep the people in these regions and the people trying to help them in your thoughts and prayers ❤ ❤ ❤

(People have asked me if there is a way to donate money to this area. The US-Japan Council and Japanese American Citizens League have organized the Japan Floods Friendship Fund. If anyone wishes to make a tax-deductible donation, please visit this link: http://www.usjapancouncil.org/japan_flood_friendship_fund.)

Thank you so very much. ❤

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13 thoughts on “There’s No Place Like Home

  1. Beth Stillitana says:

    I hate that you have to go through all of this but so appreciate you sharing everything with us. I pray as each of us reads this, a little less pain comes your way. ❤

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  2. Joyce Hostetter and Carol Baldwin are your friends!!! Mine too!!! I haven’t seen them in quite a while, but look forward to seeing Carol in September at Write2Ignite!

    I’m praying for you! I’m local, so if there’s anything I can do, please let me know! I’d love to meet for coffee when you’re feeling better!

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    • Hi Kristi! It is so wonderful we met on Twitter and now through my blog. Thank you so much for reading my post. And that is so awesome you are friends with Joyce and Carol!! It is such a small world isn’t it?! 🙂 I truly appreciate your prayers. And yes meeting up for coffee in a few weeks would be wonderful. Sending prayers your way as well. ❤

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  3. carolbaldwin says:

    Kathleen–You are a poster girl for perseverance! I read this and can’t believe all you’ve been through. So thankful that the Lord has kept you and for your good humor through it all (a lovely shade of aqua? Really?). You realize of course, that all of this pain, anxiety, fear, etc etc will make you more dependent on the Lord as well a better writer. Right? When all else fails, journal it–I know somewhere along the line a character will be experiencing all of this too!

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    • Carol, thank you so much for saying that! I”m so glad you appreciate my humor 🙂 Prayer and having a sense of humor truly helps me get through the tough times.Although this recent time around, took a lot of prayer to get some humor back. You are so right. It was a blessing in the sense I was reminded to rely on him not solely on myself. Oh and absolutely a future character will benefit from the recent pain, anxiety and fear! Thank you for your friendship through all of this! Love you ❤

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